Friday, July 08, 2005
A Whole New Level
I'm still here, really I am. I just have been so busy with work and a new venture that I haven't had time for anything blogworthy this week. Until today.
I think I've grown past the need to label this "thing" I'm going through. I don't think it's necessary to dub it D/s or BDSM or sexual reawakening or whatever. It is what it is. But it's funny...the minute I start thinking that D and I aren't really this or that and we're really just a kinky couple rediscovering eachother, something happens to prove me wrong. Like the other morning when I was ordered out of the shower and on my knees to service my love. Simple. No preparation, no big to-do, simple submission. Lovely.
D doesn't read my blog often and he definitely doesn't read other blogs so his perception of my changes are obviously different. Because I'm really dedicated to not topping from the bottom, I've tried to not parrot back to him the things that I read or to compare us to other couples. So sometimes I'm not really sure if we're on the same page, or even reading the same book. When he made an unexpected turn into an unfamiliar part of our moutain area on the way home from dinner last night, I did not
know what to think!
I'll elaborate further later, but let's just say that last night was wonderful in so many ways, but most importantly, D gets me. He seems to really understand what I want and what I need and is willing to give it to me. He understands. And I am so grateful.
posted by Gabby Hey at 8:04 AM