Thursday, July 14, 2005
Come Hither, by Gloria Brame
Earlier this week I picked up Dr. Gloria Brame's book, "Come Hither
." I had heard Dr. Brame's name here in there in BDSM literature and on the Internet, but this is the first book of hers I've read. I absolutely love this book. Dr. Brame is clever, funny, smart, sexy and real. I'm only about half way through the book, but I highly recommend you pick it up if you're just starting to explore this part of your sexuality...or if you know someone else that is.
I know we're all different and that there isn't one version of the truth for any of us, but I find this book entertaining, informative and helpful. I think some of you might also.
posted by Gabby Hey at 10:39 AM
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Happy, happy. Joy, joy.
I'm happy. Just plain happy. I think my family has been through so much trauma this last year or so that it's nice just to sit back and breathe. Obviously, there are areas of my life that need work, but I've finally gotten to that place that I lost so long ago. It's so rewarding to know that all the changes over the last six months have had a positive affect on my husband and children. I knew that I needed to make some changes, but I was afraid that I was being selfish. But if I didn't work on myself, I knew that I would die. It's so strange that my spiritual bankruptcy would bring me here to this person that I'm becoming: a better lover, a better wife and a better mother.
Because our baby girl was with my MIL, last night D and I were able to make love in our own bed. Afterwards, he held me all night long and even gently rubbed my back when he thought I was sleeping. Right now...right this second, I have no internal struggles about my sexuality or my sobriety. Right now, I'm at peace.
posted by Gabby Hey at 4:20 PM
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
After dinner last Thursday, D and I started the long drive home. We discussed normal married couple things (how was your day, what did the kids do today, did you make the car payment, when does Boy start soccer). In fact, it was a very nice, noneventful dinner, followed by what started out as a very normal drive home. About 5 miles from the house, D unexpectantly turned down a road that I see every day, but have never been down. Since we live in a national forest, there are a lot of these undiscovered roads to and from town. I, of course, asked where we were going and was promptly told "why don't you just be quiet and enjoy the ride" (followed by an evil grin). Uh, ok. Being quiet is not really a very strong characteristic of mine, but I fought my urges and kept my mouth shut.
After about 5 or 6 miles we turned right onto a dirt road and drove through a fairly remote area, and turned one last time into a lovely clearing in the woods that opened up to the beautiful evening sky (it doesn't get dark here until at least 9 or later). D turned our gas-sucking truck around and backed into a little "corner" of the clearing. He quietly got out, opened the back and layed out a blanket. He put his arms around me and gave me the sweetest kiss, followed by a slap on my rump and an order to take my clothes off. And, strangely enough, I did. Right there in the middle of the forest, I got naked. Me! I could tell he was proud of me, but already knew that the new me would comply. How exciting, how unexpected! I was thrilled beyond belief...not only by the erotic feel of it all (we've had many outdoor adventures at our annual trek to Lake Powell), but by the sheer fact that my husband really understood what I needed, what I craved. I'm getting wet again just writing about it!
When he pushed me down to my knees to take his cock in my mouth, I couldn't show him enough how much I loved him and how much I wanted to please him. I was overwhelmed by my desire to please and the need to be submissive to him. By the time he bent me over and entered me from behind I was so wet I thought my juices would start running down the inside of my thigh. When he started smacking my ass with his hand I could feel the sting for the first time. Up until now, his spanking had been to test my endurance and desire. We were obviously beyond that stage now. He pulled the clip out of my hair and grabbed a handful. When I came, I think I cried out D's name. I had the most powerful orgasm I think I've ever had. I wasn't fully aware when he pulled out of my still throbbing cunt and came in my mouth and on my mouth.
I had to smile when he told me later he'd had the plan to take me out there for weeks, but just hadn't had the opportunity. I think I was still in a daze when we drove up to the house and greeted the sitter and children.
I really love my husband.
posted by Gabby Hey at 3:01 PM